Its all finally over
Hurray n sigh! well, i rejoice coz FINALLY EXAMS ARE OVER! sigh coz i did not do very well for my last paper… i totally blank out like what happened during termtest. PUO really killed me like crazy! But i pray a mircale would happen and hope i will make it thru! been feeling very down n emo the whole day though i was out w mum tdy!
Well after paper went to meet mum and e ma (mum’s sis) at tm for lunch. Den shopped around to relieve some stress n emo-ness in me. Crap! ha.. well bought 2 shirts tdy at Spilt! heh.. finally. ha. was like having a shopping spree! ha. after which we head down to chinatown as we need to get some toiletries from there. Before we head to get what we wanted.. we shop again.. haha.. but it was window shopping i swear. haha..I eyed on a shorts that i saw… will get it soon! well, we went in to OG and also to some shop houses to shop for clothes! ha. can u believe it.. people are stockin up food but we are stockin up SHIRTS! wahaha.. coz my mum say always so hard to get me available… i am either too busy w sch or too busy w frens… she finds its hard to get hold of me! so whenever i am free she will grab me n get me to get stuffs that we need. like now.. a few mths time its gg to be Christmas.. after which its the new year! well, to her.. i will be damn jammed packed with my activities so we are getting some clothes whenever we see it! that is how i can get 15 clothes for this yr’s new yr! through the mths as we shop we find nice n affordable we buy! haha.. Some mite think we are Kaisu but really sometimes when u wanna get something u really want its hard to find. ha
Well, been in such a delimmea these days… attraction spent on studying is pretty short.. haiz.. but super disappointed w the last paper tdy.. oh wells,… "what is done cannot be undone"… hm…my blog has been stagnent for a while lah… ha.. but well lots of things happen. Lazy to type but anyway my toloerance lvl is not gettin on good hands… pretty bad these days..
I am super tempremental recently.. not sure of what reasons but i feel that i am so lost in some lost world… or in a world of my own. >< heh.. well anyway.. gt to get back to work le.. came here to destress a lil… ha… did some emailing on sponsorship.. well worried for my HLP n ECO lah.. Next would be Wk 0 again! ha. Well, we will see. haiz.
Tk care..
will blog soon durin the hols..
ha anyway my hols have started. haha..
=)
cheers
chel
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Well, time flies and now sem exams are coming n my yr 2 sem 1 is coming to an end! well well, haiz… i am so so so so worried, i hope i can mk it thru this time round too..
Well, recently been so busy, busy till i have no life. HA. My life now is study, home and also club stuff. It really mks me very paranoid when i cant do my things well. haiz.. super disappointed w myself. I find my standard has drop and there are many good n better ones comin up. I m not sayin that i am the best, however, i am just utterly disappointed w my own performance be it in school work or club. Esp both of them are so impt to me.
I feel rather bad when pple have to ask me if i am ok? i really do not know what to say too! Coz i feel i am in such a confused state at times tt i do not voice out how i feel. Seriously, yl said tt i am taking too much responsibility to myself and not spreading my workload well. However, sometimes i do feel super insecure. Esp w all the assignments i had w my classmates. Not tt they are no good, they are cooperative but however i not sure i feel the prob lies w me at times. When things dun go well, n when i also predicted it, i feel one of them, deep down inside will be looking down on me lah.
Haiz.. also being in main com now, responsibilities are greater now. I feel i disappoint many people. As some may have higher expectations of me as compared to sub com days. I feel i am no longer efficient already. I think i will disappoint alot of pple. Seriously. Now a days when i do my job or work, or even simple things like gg out n get sth, i do feel disturbed over some matters that i have to do etc. Till i dont concentrate till i do GREAT MISTAKES!
Well, to him i feel sry if i was not able to help or do anything when i see u feeling so down or just so stressed up w all our projects. I know u are trying real hard. I feel at times, speechless and helpless.. or even useless. or felt that i was not even needed in the grp. Frankly sometimes w all the warmth hi and greetings i do feel great… but at times i just feel SUPER Neglected. i am not blaming anyone, but just myself bah. Coz u can say i am anti-social at times, but guess i m too stress till i just need some quite time.
I guess when i am not in a good mood it is clearly written on my face bah… am so sry but i think i have not learnt how to open up as much, as i am afraid i will just hurt or say the wrong stuff. Haiz.. pls pardon me… really…
i do not know who can give me the motivation.. or that shld i go for consuelling. Seriously, even if i do go, i guess it will be at sq 1 again.. nth much will be said..
I am worried when they are "gone". But well will just pray hard for the guidance and also patients to do anything or everything well.
I know we can do it! Let’s Proof THEM WRONG!
anyway.. its coming to 1 am already. Tml watchin NDP preveiw!
Gtg,
Tk care..
Will blog soon..
Cheers
chel
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