going beyond limits..
Had meeting yest for the debrief on HWL… well, to tell u honestly, i feel so hopeless lah.. just felt tt i did not help much despite the fact i went down for the 3 days except first day had lessons till 5. only went at the end. i really feel i was not of much help.. ah i dun know lah.
Things are piling and am going to hv a tragic "death" lah. haiz.. well, i just sometimes find myself not being me.do not know how to explain lah. sometimes i find myself redundant lah in watever things i do. i feel i m not up to standard. Even though they are senior by years and junior by age.. i feel they are much better than me lah. i feel am so "stupid" in tt sense lah. Haiz.. feel demoralised lah.
Environmental trip is revived again n here i am going to consolidate all tt i found the other time.. well.. feel it is not up to standard lah.. muz go find more le. haiz. not sure.. will consolidate and see how.. haha.. hee. k i guess i shall not go on anymore..
Anyway.. my cell bio n maths stats are down the drain already. maths careless mistake tt made me lose all my marks. n cell bio totally did not revise well enough.. haiz.. blame it on me. haiz.. gt to work extra hard le.. esp hpi on mon.. muz jy ah!! Gambate! haiz.
k i guess tt’s all.. anyway the blood buddy mascot is KAWAII!!!!!!!!! i luv it!!!
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wow.. this wk is healthy lifestyle wk.. every main n sub com is down for duty. haha.. kinda fun lah.. but its very tiring though. haha. everyone jia you k.. am sure we will reach our target… am finding pple but i guess its wrong time.. some in army, or not free.. or just recover frm illness.. haiz.. feel so sry and sad lah. haiz. will look out for more de.. hee..
anyway… quiz is in two days time n am still like bloggin now.. not studying lor.. sad sad.. cant concentrate lah.. dun know wat’s wrong w me.. omg i gt the news chen wei lian coming to our sch next wk.. n this wk is kelly poon.. haha.. so cool..
but not gg for the chen wei lian mini concert i think.. haha.. no time le.. haha.. anyway.. am super tired n super emo n seem to be pms’in lah.. haiz.. dun know lah.. i feel at a lost at times…i do feel misplaced at times.. am like neither here nor there.. .everyone seem just to be just very superificial frenz.. i really feel kinda misplaced at times, or maybe i think too much. haiz.. not sure its so miserable.. the feelin is v miserable. haiz..
i gt not other words to describe already. my eyes are shuttin already. haiz.. hv not even reach 1.2 of cell bio lor.. k i better get gg.. study le..
BYE HUMANS n FOLKS..
cheers
chel
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I just need someone to lend me a shoulder n i will just cry all i want.. tt sounds really selfish lah.. but.. i cant tk it anymore!
u just mk me dun wanna come home and mk home such a frightenin plc but actually home can be a plc where warmth n luv can be found… its not happenin anymore. it doesnt. dun say tt one do not know how to ecpress but express differently.. but i just feel its not there anymore. i seem to become a stranger to u instead of someone whom i know anymore..
well, well, i just feel i cant be my happy self anymore.. i seem to be wearing a mask all the time.. some see me smiling but deep down i am not who i supposed how pple see me.. i may seem strong to be able to overcome any obstacles.. guess u r wrong. i do learn but certain things i just cant understand lah. its beyond my control already.
another thing.. why did i fall so deep… so silly of me n now am getting myself hurt for wat. get urself into such complicated situations for wat.. since u know the outcome dun get urself hurt! omg. feel i am so silly.. really silly.. its better to be loved than to love? seeing friends w broken relationships.. y get myself in? not as if i m in a relationship but m giving myself a burden lah. haiz.. enough already i guess.. no more nonsense. no mood to blog.
oh btw, had ccn tdy.. was a experience. any way had fun though..
k i gtg le
feelin emo… zzz..
chel
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foaming…
many things to do… 
am dying soon
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What r u tryin to do? cant get ur way is it? than GIVE UP FOR GOODNESS SAKE! well.. am foamin badly now as work is piling up already..l hv not been so stress lah. haiz. Quiz is next wk n hv nt studied. Foams *faints* hpi is killing me badly too.. immunogens, antigens, antibodies.. GOSH! I muz BUCK UP ALREADY.
u are so gettin the family cranky k. do u know u cause everyone to go against u. stop it! u r kiiling me softly.. my body is dyin on me day by day.. can u just not bother anyting for once.. gosh.. guess a karmar will happen.. i dreamt u r gone.. gone n i feel so hopeless and also hvin so much mixed feelings.. stop giving me the stress k. ENOUGH!
Focus pls! omg, chel just cant focus. so many things are happenin tt i am so confused and in a super guilty mode as i went out for a movie tdy instead of stayin home to study. haiz.. sad sad.. n before had a Hari Raya cum Deepavali celebration near my neighbourhood area n help to help at ard 3 till 6 plus lah.
its like pass 1 already n i m not slpin yet.. hv to go for mass later.. sian… but i damn sleepy now.. bloggin w my eyes half open already… dozing off soon. haiz..
gosh.. i gt no mood to blog anymore i guess.. sleepy (zzzzz)
k tt’s all for now.. oh btw
STARDUST is a NICEEEEEEEE MOVIE!!!! A MUZ WATCH! haha..
k nitez humans..
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YOU ARE SO IRRITATING U KNOW! cant u just give me some privacy. Am already how old? just cause u cant get hold of my laptop doesnt mean u can VENT YOUR ANGER BY OPENING MY LETTERS K! STOP BEING CHILDISH LAH! when can u leave me alone to do my stuff and not pry into my personal things. I do need some PRIVACY K! do not use ur authority and try to scare me le.. but u are on the other hand stressin me u know tt. U ARE SO DAMN BLOODY SELFISH. DO NOT CARE ON HOW OTHERS FEEL!
i feel i am being so over protected by u and i dun seem to hv the freedom. u r nt understandin enough lor.. sometimes i try to understand u but i just cant tk the fact tt u r over controlling and over traditional for ur mindset. haiz. u mk me damn emo lah. super emo. =(
anyway.. tdy is a ph n i went shoppin lah instead of studyin lor.. started to shop for christmas pressi fro my frenz le.. esp my godma side.. i managed to get a v nice pressi for my god bro.. haha.. n i gt my wallet!! yippee! thks cs for ur wallet shop discount voucher! haha… i had 15% discounts for three items tt i bought.. wahaha.. hee.. bought two shirts too… =)..
i still need money lah.. crackin my brains for all my beloved frenz for christmas pressi lah.. haha.. mite intend to go art fren next wk. hee. see any diy stuff i can do n also cheap lah.. $$$$ running low le.. hahaha..
guess tt’s all for now humans and animals etc..
ignore.. am super emo now..
emoin n foamin
chel
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